I'm human

I'm human and hence Jealous , I'm human and hence get angry , I'm human and...


I had a blast of a day today . Well intially it wasn't supposed to be so with some boring chores to be done. But , bhagwaan ki kripa se all that got cancelled and I could go out with my school friends.
it was an all girl group & no offence , but , mazza hi kuch aur hai .

So while we were there and since more than half of my friends happen to be cancerians , my friend bought  " bejan daruwala tells your future for 2009 - CANCER".After the usual round of "love & marriage " and all , we decided to read about  the various divisions in which a cancerian is divided according to their date of birth .

Those who are born in the same week as I am are supposed to  have an inferiority complex  etc etc. Shunning these thoughts I enjoyed the whole day just as I would have otherwise .


An hour ago , something struck me . Maybe not an inferiority complex , but there have been times when I had felt sorry for myself.


My memory went back a year , I was carrying my heavy library books , walking to the busstand , with hair as askew as could be. And who do I see passing by , two people who I knew from a long time back, those who had flunked their boards  , looking as if they were the brand ambassadors of Allen Solly or something . And that was when I felt angry. really angry.

I feel enraged when I see people  making exam chits , some of 'em even proudly exhibit the fact that they could 'buy' the papers beforehand .

Then there are people who get through IMA in their 3 / 4th chances , there I had been looked down upon because of 83% . 


The unfairness of it bites you , but even then you cannot protest against the things . Why?? Because then u might be deemed " too held up".


What is the way out then?? Only one way , not to demean yourself ,not to pity yourself  because of such people , it is to hold your head high without thinking too much about it.

I for my part want to be rich , ambitious and at the top . tall promises to keep aren't they? I want to do exactly opposite of what they do , of what all the fakos do.

I might come down sooner than what you are thinking right now ,  but it matters what I think.
& like Raghu said " the process of detachment has to begin"




ps= Raghu's leaving roadies. It's become boring now.