ding dong baby sing a song :)

It seems like eons since I've felt like myself. Truth be told last year sucked , in every possible way. And THANK GOD that i kept my promise of making this a better year.

So here' a tag ( yeah again) , tagged by JAMES.


lets see what I do to this one


1. Pick out a scar you have, and explain how you got it

scarred thoughts ,
scarred beings ,
outer scars shame us ,
inner scars scare us.

Cant' count the numerous times have fallen
Scraped my knees and elbows
Brushed and got up again
After all locomotion is what I had to learn !

2. What does your phone look like ?

And I'm stuck at the sight of you .

yup got one day before yesterday :D. Its a Nokia 5310 .


3. What is on the walls of your bedroom?

Cemented plasters, memories -taken long ago , a lil light , maybe a lizard or a roach , naah it's all pretty clean.

blank walls , blank paintings , blank pages . So many blanks and all the thoughts there , right there in those few pounds of cranium cavity .


4.What is your current desktop picture?

Blah nothing cool. :)


5. Do you believe in gay marriage?

I guess I"ll throw a fit if anyone stops me from doing anything that I want. So who am I to judge what others should do or not !

6. What do you want more than anything right now?

letting my hair loose ,
playing in the breeze,
the playground beckons me .

losing myself in imagination,
not worrying about any schedule,
watching movies this whole noon.

the heart yearns not when its happy ,
the heart's in bliss when it feels itself .


7. Are your parents still together?

touche'


8. Last person who made you cry

"So when I hear you calling my name,
I'll know the good I've done
I guess that's why it's raining diamonds, sweet happiness in tears
Crying heaven shed your diamonds,
diamonds for tears" ( poets of the fall )


9. What is your favorite perfume/cologne ?

NONE


10. What are you listening to?

Since I'm in such a poetic mood , its 1973 by James Blunt.


" I would call you up every Saturday night
And we both stayed out till the morning light
And we sang, "Here we go again"
And though time goes by
I will always be
In a club with you
In 1973
Singing "Here we go again"

Simona
Wish I was sober
So I could see clearly now
The rain has gone...."


11. Do you get scared of the dark?

The black heart,
Scarier than the dark night
Is it your or mine ?
whatever ,whoever , whyever
are we like this?


12. Do you like pain killers?

SHUT UP


13. Are you too shy to ask someone out ?

pagalpanti

14. If you could eat anything right now, what would it be?

pooh! nothing ,just had my lunch.

15. Who was the last person who made you mad?

Believe it I'm the sanest person ever !!!!!

16. Who was the last person who made you smile?

Jude Law


17. Is someone in love with you ?

And finally we have arrived at 'that' portion of the tag.

ans : NA

BEING A CIVILIAN

Since Rakhi Sawant's swayamvar has already been written about , I'm republishing one of my first posts . ( nahi nahi main comments ki pyasi nahi hoon :P )

This post is free from any inhibitions and 'for the bloggers' typecasting . (only the typos have been corrected :) )

Some time back , I was silenced when I was a view different from the pity or rather the charity like words voiced for Army men and their families. Solidarity and Unity is different from pity. So here it is ....


To start with , being an army kid you learn almost everything about life by 19 ( i.e. how to face people , what 2 say when & what not to say , what to say jisse fayda ho , all etiquettes & ya all that ) but what you don't learn , is that , how to mingle with the 'non -army ' people .
the trick that most of us learn is to charm our way through people , lets see whether that helped me in my life or not.

Lemme start with the small things - while growing up we never really stayed in Kolkata for long , just for the summer holidays which would b divided between dida bari & thakumar bari , & ya visits to & from relatives would be inevitable ."INEVITABLE " because at that time we didn't like them , not the relatives of course kinda nice, but me & my brother couldn't really understand the language ( I mean yaaa we did speak it at home but only because of ma - thank god ki she taught us some Bangla , me & my bro never speak in Bangla , nor do we do that with papa )

Especially when people speak it so fast , also the culture would be so different , Durga Puja meant a 10 day ka hols for us but we came to talk about it as dussehra , funny it seemed then that people didn't know what it was to ' close ' their plates , that some laughed and said " ohh maaa" wen we wished " good morning aunty " .

If someone else asked us " Hey are you from Calcutta?" , We would be quick to reply " Yes we are , but we don't know Bengali " , It was only later on did I realize that that every Army bachha does that , doesn't matter from which part he / she is 4rm " all they say is - yes we r from there , but we don't know the language"

So why is it so ?? Why are we so uncomfortable when we visit our own relatives? I think its because deep down its embedded in us that we are some how different from the 'civilians" . I was going through life like this when we got posted to Kolkata.

Now I like to think that since we lived in so many places we didn't liked to be just a bengalis (btw i detest the term 'BONGS') rather an Indian .(So full of desh bhakt haina :) )

After coming here we made many Bengali friends ( yes they were civilians) & you know what slowly we realized "Hey they are not bad or anything"
Actually the thing is when you don't understand a language , people are not always kind enough two translate , that's when you think that perhaps they are making fun of you .

By now I had many friends here , & had slowly started to resent the feeling the difference between .

There is this thing in army circles - you are either a MAY QUEEN ( a beauty pageant which takes place every May) girl or you ain't . I belong to the latter , & thankfully I had many civilian friends who neither knew about such a thing nor asked silly questions , THANK GOD

Its been about 8 years since we've shifted to Kolkata & it finally feels like home . I mean abhi bhi lagta hai " hey 8 years se no posting , can u imagine that??"

I by state buses & not 3tons or jeeps or jongas anymore ,nothings more yummy than phuchka. I've learnt loads of Bangla , thanks to college people ( saheli ) , but Hindi still remains my language .

I have also learnt that, to many people my background doesn't matter , that all I need is to be happy with the way my friends are . Well there are some people who ask me" hey Amrita ,AK - 47 dekhechish?? kabhi chalaya hai" or just " arre colonel ki beti "

But you know what, all I can do is smile coz I'm just as proud of what my dad does as anybody would feel about their dad . & for those who don't know , an Officer is not really allowed to take home AK 47 and show it to his kids ;) , nor do they really talk about what they all have to do in Kashmir or any such area .


Give or take now atleast I am fluent in 3 languages and will never say " bubbbaa the chair is sssoo heabby"



SO i guess now I'm an Army-Civilian gal & referring to the May Queen thing . a friend recently said " hey Amrita , army girls are supposed to b the sexy cutey types , you are not , but your intellect is maha attractive" .

:D :D


ps : Oh! I'm gonna miss Poulami

IF ONLY....

I don't know if you like it or not,
I don't care if you don't like its smell,
is it P's Hut or Dominoes for you , or maybe Giovannis
I like Dominoes best ,
they say the simplest one is the best
so cheese pepperoni it is
does this some kinda weird poem ??
well then just imagine this :::::>>>>>


Some find it sick coz its hard to imagine a harder way to die of cholesterol
but I'd rather die of pleasure ;). "it felt so right , it felt so wrong " :)

Naaah I don't like jalapenos nor do i love oregano , just give me the plain ol' pizza and that"ll make my day

Will it be too prudent if i ask Chidambaram to declare that 'em to be a financial right .
a right which won't burn a hole too deep in my pocket ?

"can you , can you sir do it?"

If for obvious reasons you find this post silly blame it on her oh soryy her arre yaar ye kya ho raha hai ?? bohot din se khane ka mann kar raha hai *sigh* ......

ok ok with all thanx to her ( shit presentation ki aadat nahi gayi )

ps : Quote of the week : " bubaaaa itnaaa hawaa tha mujhe laga mera makeup hi ud jaaigaa" - guess who ?? :P :D :D