Congratulations are in Order!

 I often get anxious thoughts unable to sleep, what if something goes wrong, what if I’m fired again, what if one day my husband find me irritable and decides to leave?

He has said on multiple occasions that he will not.

But today I want to congratulate myself for coming so far.

For being that bullied girl, for being the person most wrote off, for being that girl who took everything a little too seriously, for that girl who was fired unceremoniously, for that girl who was reminded of her class when she tried to rise up.

Look where have we come today 😁 Congratulations girl, you did it, you have an awesome husband who adores you even on your worst days, you have a high paying job, your managers loved you so much that they cried on your last day and your parents have finally come around.

Life is so green and full of opportunities. You can now take flights on your own whim and it really doesn’t matter any more :)

You did all that you wished for and even more.

So instead of over thinking that why can’t I become my past happy go lucky self maybe take a moment and appreciate that even with crippling anxiety and migraines and tackling unknowns more than ever, you are still standing tall.

🤘🏽🤘🏽🤘🏽🤘🏽🤘🏽

New Opportunity- First World Dilemma

 I have so many things to write about, but lets focus on my latest first world problem.

I got a *nice* job offer, which bumps my salary by 40% which is what it should have always been. But also with the sad realization that to accept it I will have to quit my current org. 

I have yet to work in a company which has accepted me as whole heartedly as where I am now. I am appreciated but also undervalued. I have done this before, and been much before.

Seldom have I worked in an environment when colleagues are motivated by the work and not by the fear of year end appraisals.

Inspite of a very negative effect of being laid off last year, I had found a new professional home here. 

Life however, is about growth….Yet my heart can’t help but wander that, I wish sometimes I could just stay.