Friday, June 17, 2011

Six months later

It is such a sense of freedom to know that no one will be reading you.
Six months later, most of the known names have disappeared from the blogging scene. I frankly don't care about the new replacements.
I shall write now unhindered and will not publish these posts on facebook.

I have a job now.. even though it never feels like a job. The days pass by one by one.. all the same yet different. I have a set, a band of friends now. I've had vodka (once) ,I speak laugh and do everything. Its as if these six months have made me regain my life back.

Some friends have broken away, some drifted away. I should've known better.. thats always how it is. However much you love your friends everyone has to go away. The world is not really that small. But now unlike before, even though I know this, I'm not afraid of speaking what I think.

I stay almost 24 * 7 with the nicest couple who treat me like their baby.
But sometimes when I look at them.. I want what they have.. what my parents have.
I also try to be clever and have crushes on so called handsome faces.. but I know i dont give a damn about them.
I cared only once and that feeling is long gone.
"Its time to move on" is what I feel and know that I am moving on. But some part of me, still wants to hold on , hold on to what could have been, hold on to my imaginations.
Now that I'm ok again, I still wait for that one phone call, knowing very well that the things wished for are not what you get.
Even though this is a new life with everything new , this life is perfect.
Maybe I have finally become normal or finally know myself.

I do like work :) well anyone would if they were where I am :).
People at work don't care about if I'm cool or not.. they somehow like me.

I like watching fun, I like having fun, I like dancing with my flatmate , I like waking up in the morning, Weekends have this special meaning, I like arguing. I like having my life back.


The Furobiker said...

welcome back :)

Mads said...

does that mean u don't care about Ranbir anymore? RK <3 is over now? :O

and...this was a very mature and different post. U have changed, I must say :) and im happy u love ur job and ur life :)

All the often. Glad to see u updated ur blog today :D

Akansha Agrawal said...

Hey you do sound mature, but in a very good way... >:D<

Trust me, you will care once more... and this time it will be for the right guy :) :)

And you've never been afraid to speak out, truthful. Write as often as you like... :D

Told you that RKs of the world can never last. :P

deluded said...

ui ma. i still here ;)

good to know youre getting more mature and youve tried vodka.
not in that order though.

wait. i shouldnt read comments before i comment. now i read ^^^ these mature comments and im like... hmm. maybe i shouldnt have said that.

next stop, try an Alexandre! chocolate and alcohol mix well.

Amrita said...

Welcome back and its so sweet you like work and ppl at work :)
And its sweet that you live with a caring couple!

Aastha said...

hmmm and ur room mate loves u for making the awesome and nicest cold coffee every morning... :D :D

I'll try 2 be truthful said...

ooooooooo tune comment kiya :D :D

arre mummy <3 "caesar home"