Saturday, June 1, 2013

A Hope

Do  u know what it is like to fall in love?

Is it like falling into a deep unknown abyss?
Is it lie feeling your heart getting quenched?
Is it like something finally made sense?
Is it like having a sense of loss forever?

I sometimes wonder how it is when two people feel so complete with each other that they just know.

I have felt twice that  I could be complete .
The first time turned out to be a massive crush and well the second time.
The second time gave me the sense of loss which I carry with me all the time.
A sense that I could probably never see him, can never talk to him,
But after all , its only words and his words are all that I have left of him..
 I have deleted all mails , all conversations that were there
But a memory cannot be erased

A memory of the time when he reached out to me
When he saw through me , for what I really was
When his words formed a blanket against all that I was facing then
When he said that I don't need beauty to comfort me because that was within

Things which meant a lot , but now seem like an echo of something shouted long ago
Things which dont mean as much to him.

I am yet to experience the love , the simple love where you can take the other for granted love
and of late I have come to doubt if it really exists ,if someone will ever feel it for me , he used to say that someone will ..

Maybe that day is yet to come , the closure is yet to come
But when it comes I hope that like everyone else, its a happy ending .


Nidz said...

loved the line that now all left is lomg lasting echo of yesterdays. m sure you will your love soon. wait for right time with right someone

Amrita said...

well i do not believe in love. its a logical emotion you 'want' to feel . call me party pooper :)

well... you learn from experiences - good or bad. what you had did not materialise - well we move on. is nt that bloody life?

celebrate the good things, and yea ... you will get someone to enjoy the ride of life with.

Resurgence said...

Ladki... Yeh Kya hai?? I am not even close to being an authority on this subject but hey what you see in movies and serials; what you read in stories - that kind of 'love' exists but not in its entirety... We are humans and we falter and hence we falter in handling that entity called 'love'... sometimes by a little and sometimes in a big way... Go on and enjoy life... Explore things, motives and emotions and yes You will get someone who cares for you more than your own expectations... God Bless You... :)