I'm cooking my usual breakfast , the eggs almost done , the toast is burning. I switch off the toaster.There's a weird smell , the gas is leaking , I turn off the cylinder .Yet the gas leaks , I panic, and open all the windows & doors of my house .
& then I wake up.
Cool breeze carresses my hair, dadu is sitting by my feet , smiling . I feel content . His face is not visible, but he conveys that he has faith in me. Then as suddenly as the breeze fear steals over . Its been a week since he died.
& then I wake up .
My brother is sleeping. But he is sleeping on my bed and not his.I can sense something wrong ,just like the time when he was about to fall and I failed to warn him. The fan , there's something wrong with it , It comes crashing down him and all I can do is shout " hat jaa".
& then I wake up.
I'm very excited. Tomorrow we"ll go to watch Kuch Kuch Hota Hai. I hope to have a happy dream. I dream of the whole Koi Mil gaya song just as it was in the movie.
Its my 13th and last christmas. I dream that santa gives me a nail enamel ,all my friends wear it u know , but mom doesn't allow me. I wake up & thats what I find in my stockings :).
My board results are due tomorrow . I dream meenakshi calls me up to lemme know about my results. Next day , my net is slower than usual , Meenakshi calls up " hey tera result sun , I got through the result helpline ......"
I know I'm sleeping and yet I'm falling . But there's no fear in me, in fact I feel happy , floating away into blissfulness.Its a dream .
Intitutions , fear , wishes all reflected in them
they seem truer than reality , yet are at a distance from reality.
seperated by a thin border of surrealism , reality can also be a dream
I wake up every time knowing that they weren't true
Why do i search for my answers in them ? then?
My mind which remains in my control , slips into the other world at night.
If my 'self' is for real , why can't my thoughts be too???
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