Been tagged by rachael :) . its a first from her .So here it goes ,
1.What have you realised recently?
Many many many things , have realised
--that there will always some people who will never leave your side.
---- that just because someone doesnt do what we do , they arent wrong in doing so .
----that life is what it is & it will take you where it has to ,but of course, in the end you can say that I showed it the way.


2.Have you given your first kiss away?
a typical sati savitri answer would be " of course to ma &dad" but i know well which first kiss this question asks about , & no that has not yet come my way .
*unless of course you take that time when i was a 9yr old & kissed amir khan's screen image hehehhehe*

3. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 11 blog buddies you would take?
the island wouldnt be deserted then hehheh.
But actually , maybe no one. thats really cold of me na? but thats what i am like , very few people have my full confidence. &thats why have named 'tis blog"ill try to be truthful" (however melodramatic it may sound).
because today even if i do name 11 bloggies , will that chance really come ?
vanilla sky & tyro i hope u wont be angry at me now .
4.Where is the place you want to go the most?
Tawang (again) , Greece , Venice ... the list goes on .& of course all the places i'v stayed in .

5.If you have one dream to come true,what would it be?
As a kid , I had a dream that when i would grow up , i"ll be super successful really cool &all that. & then i would drive down my car to my own apartment which is tastefully done by me . but , the colour of my room is purple ( yes thats right).
& after parking my car , i go up to my room , sit on a cream coloured sofa , switch on the tv , watch something & then go to cook my dinner . after cooking & eating i'd be tired like hell & then go to sleep thinking " wow i finally did what i wanted to , i finally am independent".
6.Do you believe in seeing the rainbow after the rain?
I believe in seeing the rainbow during rain .

7.What are you afraid of losing the most now?

Idont know , maybe when I"ll lose something then I"ll know

8.If you win $1 million, what would you do?
I"ll keep on reminding myself that I mus'nt go mad , or stop working hard or stop aspiring for bigger things :) . waise a top open gaddi would be a good idea :D& maybe a trip to the places i wanna go & maybe some gucci ,valentino dresses & some of this 'n' that. .......

9.If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
I guess that"ll be that one time when i"ll be shy . But who knows what"ll happen if there's someone ..............................

10.List out 3 good points about the person who tagged you
-- she tagged me .
-- raphael rhymes with racheal (from friends)
- she's nice


11.What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
" all of us try to find love , &when we dont , we close our eyes to it , telling that there's no such thing , all the while waiting for it to come & wake us up , shake us & scream at us saying " its me , & only me "
as for the 'requirements' thing i actually don't believe in such things because in the end they don't matter ( well except ofcourse - a senile mind :P)

12.What type of people do you hate the most?
I dont really hate people , just some characteristics in them.
some of them being trickery , falsehood, & a rougish look in the eyes .

13.What is the one thing you can't live without?
people , people & people .

14. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
I listen to only some people who over the years have wished well for me .As for others pointing out my faults its fine as far as its something valid & not something stupid as "you should put on more weight "

15. Racheal tag shows that this qwestun is missing. What do I do?
I put up a question ----" when was the last time you helped someone? why did you do it?"

16.Are you a shopaholic or not?
hehheheheheh only when mom is with me :P


17.Find a word to describe the person who tagged you
nice

18.If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
the part which gets tensed before exams.


19.What’s the last shocking thing you've seen or heard?
shocking thing heard :that the most bhola bhala paraku mumma's boy kinda guy of my class has proposed a dumb idiot who' also 6 years elder to him & already has 3 bfs ( at a time) & all this because the guy is really desperate now !!!!! & nothing because of the 4 letter L word !!
the shocking thing i have seen is : my star world has disappeared only to be replaced by some moronic CTVN akd (yuck) , where all day long male astrologers in salwar kameez & female "jyotishaas" in kurta pyajamas sit & talk shit (booo hoo hooo )


20.Would you rather have love but no money or money but no love?
I'd love to have both money & love .But taking a pick is really hard for me ( i wonder why :O most people wouldnt think twice before saying love ) but one things for sure , would never love someone for his money ,.

lastly this tag goes specially to vanilla sky & tyro . anybody else who wishes to take up this tag can do so too.

A cad is actually short for cadbury - the chocolate & is often used for referring a guy who looks delicious ( hehe ) , cute & everything nice .
I know most of my friends must be thinking like " ye to gayiii" . & I also know of many who think of this cad as 'a gay icon' but , main kya karuu ( am smiling now hhehe) , banda inna sona ho to kya karuu . alas! the guys in an engg. college are not even half as good (looking)& all they do is crib about the fact that engg. college ki girls "maal" nahi hoti . Whatever , this guy brings back the old world classiness & chauvinism in his looks . And for once the chemistry between this real life couple doesnt look forced . NO this is not a review of Bachna Ae Haseeno , its just a girly post :) . After all even I have the right to do things completly girly once in a while .

But then again, thinking of the girls in the movie - here's a real mean view of what happened to them . I know each time ranbir k. ( raj) broke their heart , really hated raj & all that . But in one way , these girls were too ready to fall in love , to give up almost everything for the guy they thought loved them .& that's why they deserved this heart break , you should'nt ever lose yourself to make some one else happy . people around you will be happy , only if they feel that you too , are happy.

ps -- 1. am changing my blog song to "ahista " , it's something very apt for first love.
2. A said " girls should be proud if someone flirts with them , as in lintelligent , attractive girls get flirted with etc etc . " to this I said " but if some guy flirts , does he think if the girl is intelligent or does he think of how beautiful she is ( & dekhoo ki kitni dumb hai ) & uspe chance kaise maroo etc etc . "

Of Winners & Losers

Depressed , dejected , sad, good for nothing;
big mouth, nautanki,negative,foul faced;
wretched,heart withered,hopeless,hated;
disparity-defined,awful,awe-less,less than average ;
nothing special,recluse,thinks too much,cant emote;
tensed,mad,too sentimental,too rude;
frustrated,tired,culture-less,bored-down&bogged out;
attention craving,lost out on everything;
not the person I used to be.


This is what I had exactly been feeling like till a few moments back . I wanna get my lost confidence back , the will to get everything .That's when realised , that confidence is something which must come from deep within us . We may search for it in what others say , but won't get it there.
There's a fire burning in all of us but sometimes it may get doused . am searching for the matchstick :) .
Took out my class 12 maths book , did lil bit of integration all over again :) . haha I think I should do a lil bit of it everyday , just to be in the right spirits.
When Mr. Bhindra wins a gold medal for your country , you ought to feel happy for your country & too some extent patriotic too. but you know what ? the guy has actually also won many more awards -like the Khel Ratna awards . Did he feel dejected when his name was'nt announced in all the dailies, then? maybe he was , socha hoga akhir itna karne ke baad bhi no money , honey ? & as maybe Mtv -ticker said correctly --" Abhinav Bhindra won the olymics gold , but even then Rohit Sharma will earn more money " Is'nt it silly of us to suddenly talk of national pride whereas even two days back all were mulling that why did the Blue Indian Team fail in Sri Lanka?

" The clouds give all their golden dust to the last rays of sun but they welcome the moon with a fleeting smile" -- R. Tagore

All of us love winners , but how many of us are winners???

This post might seem to be completely threadless , but its not , all that this gal wants to put forward is that just 'coz someone thinks that you are a loser , it aint so .
Meanwhile , instead of feeling patriotic am feeling sad , coz my favourite puchkawallah is dead now. "How stupid" did you say?? well, am not really a great fan of puchka & am also quite aware of the *ahem* diseases it could cause , but this guy used to make it like really khatta & with all things nice & was neatness personified . So I guess i"ll miss him & his puchkas .
& as for confidence , atleast I dont have any previous *high* standards to look upto . :)

p.s puchkas are like the patented kolkata roadside snack